thinking...reflecting...dreaming. I miss church. Amidst all it's imperfections and conflicts, there was such familiarity...comfort....community. I had no idea life in a new town would be so....isolating. Eight weeks or so ago, my optimism got the best of me. Not that I regret this - as it really was the best option - it's just that I hadn't anticipated all this loneliness. After all, I love adventure...exploring...meeting new people. It's just that the adventure and exploration have seemed to have worn off a bit and the people? Well, they're just sort of...not there. I find myself peering around Meijer end caps in search of a kindred spirit. It's just that everyone just seems so...serious - whether they're walking in and out of church, or intently assembling their organic groceries into their grocery carts. Meanwhile, I'm yearning to just connect - at the kids' school, at church, and yes, even the grocery store. It's funny how just a few years ago, feeling quite established and secure in my life, I was so quick to judge people such as myself, labeling them as needy or immature. And yet here I am...feeling quite needy and immature.
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